shaky hands

As it is right now, I am perched on the Zaichenko couch, glancing at the kids playing by the bookshelf. Deema can't walk but he can stand; And he has been standing for about ten minutes now, shoving a yellow plastic cup into his tiny mouth. Nadia is quietly reading and Jon Foreman's "Resurrection" is blaring in the background. It's going to be a good day, I can tell. Today we have haircut appointments- Shannon is afraid of cutting their hairs by herself, so she is going to watch someone else cut them to build her confidence. What a lady. I would just snip them. If they looked terrible then I'd laugh and let them grow out.

So, I'm not sure as to how appropriate this is, but I'm going to blog it anyway. Day before last, I wore underwear, "boy shorts." I walked into the hallway and my mom was convinced that I was sporting my boyfriend's underwear. She's still convinced they are his. They aren't. Yesterday morning, wearing the same underwear, I was accused by my dad of wearing his own underwear. Why can't a girl just wear her underwear in peace? I guess there are reasons we wear clothes over our undergarments.

It really seems like I have unlimited time at the Zaichenko house. I don't get bored, but sometimes I miss driving around and talking with people over the age of four.

In other news, I'm accepted to Elim Bible Institute. Woohoo! I requested a four person dorm room. I know. My reasons for doing it are good however. I figure my main problem at school is always socializing, but if I always have a room full of people, then I will want some peace and quiet and a chance to do my homework. We'll see if that happens. :) But I am excited. The only thing that makes me a little queasy is Joel. He'll be on the other side of the country from me. I'll be studying bodies and medicine and he'll be studying the Bible- we'll be busy and I won't have a chance to hold him. You actually start to forget what people feel like when you haven't seen them for awhile. It's stupid. So, my stomach already hurts thinking about it. I can see how people in Bible times would relate deep, strong feelings or emotions to their kidneys or bowels, as opposed to their heart. Cause you get the deep GUT pangs. It's more realistic. Exhale. Moving on.

I miss being naive. I am still very naive and innocent though. I know a lot less than most people about everything. And I'm really glad that I don't understand sick sex jokes or how to do my taxes. Well, maybe not the taxes part.

God is calling the church back to seeking purity and holiness- he wants a personal revival in our hearts. Then revival will spread throughout the church. If we want a lasting revival and not a temporary fix, we need to make permanent changes in our hearts, a LIFESTYLE of purity. It's time to start trimming the fat out of our lives and get back to a life of simple devotion to Jesus Christ.

That's all for today, folks.

It's sunny and the bears are frolicking- thank God.